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In a lot of ways, my whole life has felt like walking a “runway.” Fast paced. Non-stop. Observed by crowds and cameras. And one hell of a shit show backstage.Whether it be stepping in front of an audience to sing, in front of a group of athletes to teach a Joga class, or in front of aspiring coaches to lead a training, I’ve always excelled at what I do- even at the expense of my mental and physical health.

Whether it be standing on stage or at the front of a boardroom, being in an interview or on a first date, the FEAR of REJECTION is in us all.

This fear is the major root of stage fright or “performance anxiety” and prevents millions of people from performing optimally at their jobs and in life.

As many of you already know from My Story, I haven’t just been performing for the last 20 years. Since in 2007, I’ve also lead hundreds of individuals and groups in fitness, yoga and meditation classes. You may also know that I started practising meditation at age 13 to better cope with the stage fright I struggled with as a teenager and young adult.

I’ve Gotta Face Me Now | Episode 19 The RAD Frontier PodcastJaney Brown is a singer, song writer, and performance coach amongst several other amazing talents who hales from Toronto, Canada! She is the Founder of The Fearce Academy which is an online coaching program for athletes, leaders, and performers to help them overcome fear and anxiety. Janey has done years of her

lifelong cycle, grants us the courage to feel joy more fully when it’s present and prevent us from spiralling when it isn’t. I’m not sure life is “easy” for anyone, but we can start to develop a sense of ease within our lives once we commit to putting in the work every single day to heal. We can only heal if we’re brave enough to face and embrace our pain.

The happiest year thus far for me has been manifesting since my last birthday (sept 2015), when I stepped out from underneath my armour a little more and started sharing with the public not just my successful moments, but the darkness and vulnerability that are a part of me too.

iTunes Introducing Marella Jane: Ok I admit it…. The star target in “Psycho” is a guy that I once loved, in fact my first love. (If you’re reading this, thank you for the inspiration.. I truly couldn’t have done it without you. ) Of course I didn’t actually mean the things I said about following him home, choking the soul out of him, throwing a knife at his throat etc., it was just something I took prodigious pleasure in fantasizing, writing and singing about.

Boom. I never see it coming, and it scares the life out of me every time. Cold as ice and crippling. Like an invisible sledge hammer demolishing my chest, sending numbness to my extremities. A black snake slithers in through the shards of my pounding, broken heart, and up my neck where it coils itself around, choking off my voice. I am small and helpless compared to the monster inside, eating me alive. I could die.